Lent 2018: Out of my Comfort Zone

Lent 2018
Name: Jason Chung
Lenten Commitment: Procrastinate less and do his QT every day

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I did not plan on participating in Lent this year. But as time went on, I wanted to use the season to strengthen my relationship with God so I chose to give up procrastination and recommit myself to doing my QT.

Procrastination plays a major role in my life. Countless times, I have put off my homework until the last minute and stayed up until three in the morning to finish it. And on the days when I did not finish my homework at home, I would spend time in my other classes trying to complete it. On other days when I just did not get to do it, I would lie to my teachers to avoid getting in trouble by saying that I had left it at home.

Thinking back on it, I realize now that I had been committing a sin without even being aware of it.

Procrastination not only affected my academics but also affected my relationship with God. My mindset – that I have to constantly get good grades and do well in school – caused me to place school and grades above God. And lying to my teacher and wasting the precious time that God has given me are some of the results.

I always pushed my QTs aside and only did them when it was convenient for me or when my dad reminded me. And when I did do them, I would just rush through the passage without reflecting on what I had read which neglected the point of spending time with God’s word in the first place.

So when Lent first started, I pushed away all my distractions and refocused on what I needed to do. I sat down and finished my homework and did my QT every night. I learned more about God and helped strengthen my relationship with Him.

I have realized how God tells us what to do and what not to do, but because of our own selfishness, we end up doing what we want to do or what we think is easy. God has promised us a promised land after death as long as we listen and obey Him and though it seems easy, we struggle to keep up with these little things, like doing our QT or even just thanking God for everything He has done for us.

That is not to say that it has been easy. One time, I forgot my QT book at church and I was tempted to use that as an excuse to not do my QT for that week, but I felt like that was wrong. So instead, I went to get my Bible and read a passage from the Bible with my dad because he reads the Bible and does QT regularly. Though I could have just not done my QT, I was able to persevere through the temptation, and do my QT and I am glad that I did.

During mid-winter break, I went to Florida with my family for vacation and forgot my QT book at home and did not bring my homework with me. So when we returned, I had to catch up on tons of homework. I stayed up all night trying to finish my homework on time. And in regard to catching up on all those QTs I missed, I decided to do my QTs regularly instead of rushing them. I wanted them to be meaningful instead of a random jumble of words.

There have been days I have gone without looking at the QT passage of the day because I was too busy or just forgot. Other days, I cannot focus on my homework or anything else. On those days I remind myself why I am doing this and pray to God for strength and encouragement.

As a result, I have found the strength to refocus myself and get back on track. As Lent has gone on, I am slowly doing more QT and building it into a habit. I am now able to do my QTs regularly and finish my homework fairly early.

This Lent, I was able to really focus on my QTs and take my time to look at the scripture and learn something from the readings. I used to just read the passage, get a general idea of what was happening in the passage, and forget about it the next day. Now, I am able to find time to actually read the QT passages and grasp a deeper understanding of the Bible.

I have come to really appreciate all the things God has done for us. We do not realize how much He has actually done unless we take some time to look around and see all of his work. I used to think about myself and myself only – trying to get good grades and trying to be my best self – and neglecting the things around me. This Lent has changed that and allowed me to find more time to connect with God and see everything He has done for us.

I hope for the remaining time of Lent, I will overcome my procrastination, finish my work on time, do my QTs on a regular basis, and continue to strengthen my relationship with God even after Lent.  

This post is a part of DSYG’s Lent Reflections series meant to educate and inspire readers on the season of Lent and its value in any Christian’s relationship with Christ. For more information on this series, click here.
To read more posts in this year’s series, click here.

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